On a night like tonight

On a night like tonight I honestly have to ask myself, is it worth it. I already know the answer, but tonight is a night where i can't see past the end of my nose. Tonight I guess the joy of the lord is my strength, even though i don't feel joy or strength. The phrase you gotta a friend in Jesus keeps runnin through my head. But honestly it's not enough on a night like tonight. How is faith getting me through a night when I need a physical hug. I know that God is doing a work in my life and that he is preparing me for a work down the road. But tonight my heart aches, it aches of feeling hollow and lonely.. I cut loose of a girl that God told me too. The one thing I really want i thought i found and God said no so i gave it up and here I am again and Im broken.... Im broken God im hurting do you hear me???  There are strong times but tonight is a night when I feel like im wandering in the wilderness aimlessly ! I feel lost and cold Where are you tonight lord! I love you and you know that But God tonight I need you!