Why aren't the arms reaching?

Wow! Tonight is one of those nights that makes you thankful for all the times in your life when God really moves in a good way. As for tonight the service was awesome, but there are under lying issues with some of our regular guys! It amazes me how fast a girl can destroy two guys friendship. OK I guess I should say jealousy, that's honestly what this whole thing sounds like. But not just that our youth group is shocking me lately.

Its just hard to watch a kid go down for prayer and some of our kids pray for each and every person up there and then others pick and chose who they pray for. To me this boils down to pride or " I am holier than you " Ive noticed we have had a lot of new people at our church especially in our youth group. It just amazes me to watch how no one reaches out and says hello to the new guy, but at Friday night prayer meeting they will pray and ask God to send new people and to let the youth ministry grow. If I were God I would laugh at those prayers, but he doesn't and I'm not!

There is a song that says why aren't his arms reaching, that so true how do we expect to reach out when you're giving someone that comes into the youth center the cold shoulder. All these prayers for revival to break out. Sounds to me like revival needs to start from the inside out. This is aggravating the snot out of me. But what can I do, especially when It's coming from people that work as leaders and have a high ranking in the church. It's messed up, I pray that God really work on the hearts of these that are guilty of this and if there be even a trace of it in my life, I pray for God to purge it out! LOVE YOUR BROTHER AS YOU LOVE YOURSELF!!!!
Drop the pride people!

Working through frustration and temptation!

It's an awesome day when you can attend a prayer meeting where the youth is fighting and taking a stand against the devil and all his forces. Last night was something that I needed, not so much because I was struggling but I just need reassurance from God that things will work out sometimes!

Temptations have hit but I'm trusting my God to show me the way to walk out victorious! I know that I can make it with out a shadow of a doubt. I'm so proud of our youth group at South Gastonia Church Of God. Xtreme Focus Youth Ministry has a fight, and they march with a War Cry! Watching them pray for each other and encourage each other last night was just amazing. There are people in this world willing to serve God and understand that you have to make sacrifices to do that. God is good!

Where do I stand with God?

I am having trouble with where I am at with God. I find myself daily just wondering, if i am taking all the steps that God has laid before me. I feel like I am moving in slow motion in my christian walk. The only thing that seems to be going at a normal pace is when I fail, sometimes falling down seems to hit hyper speed on the way down.

I guess I just can't see God's plan being worked through me. I am thankful for my job, but my heart is screaming for something more. Something more rewarding than this which I have. Frustration mounts, and I get discouraged, am I really allowing God to work fully in my life or are my faults getting in the way time after time? This is so hard, I was reading a blog by Leeland a few minutes ago. He was talking about God's plan for us, it was honestly inspiring. I just want to get out of this place that I am in. I want something more. Something on a grander scale, I want complete dependence and submission for God's will in my life! Lord God HELP !

The band FFH once wrote a song that said Lord move or move me! That mindset it where I find myself so many times! Lord just open up the doors you need to be open and shut the ones that need to be shut.